Something awesome happened the other week!
I complained a while back that I have a bit of a hang up when it comes to getting an orgasm without helping myself. Most of it is because I think to much and try to hard to reach orgasm.
One night my boyfriend woke me up with kisses and strokes. But I wasen't totally awake, just enough to know how to respond to his strokes. So when he went down on me and used a couple of fingers inside of me and put his thumb on my clitoris I only enjoyed myself. I didn't have any conscious thoughts at all and that's why it happened. He made me come all by himself! My hands were nowhere close to my pussy when the orgasm took my body in possession. It was awesome!
Seconds later I fell back into sleep without any kind of payback to my lovely boyfriend. Wops!
Monday, January 25, 2010
Confusing dreams
I had a long and advanced dream tonight in wich my summer crush had the lead part.
There were a brief part of sex in it but not enough to be classed as a sex dream. I think it was more a dream coming from the part of me that still has some kind of feelings for him. Of course I have feelings for him, he was a big part of my life for a time so it would be stranger to not have them. Question is what kind of feelings it is and why I feel a bit bothered.
A year ago he cancelled our friendship in favour of a relationship he wanted to function normally and I was fine with that at the time. I still get an sms on my birthday, christmas and on new years eve but all other contacts have been broken. Up until this fall I didn't miss him much, he was just a very fond memory. During the fall I started longing for his friendship again and you know I've mentioned before what I wouldn't give to have sex with him again. But I never been really sure as to why I felt like that? Did I miss him specifically or did I just miss someone like that?
After meeting the beast pretty much all of those feeling went away and I concluded that it was just a matter of wanting what I couldn't have. When waking up this morning I was confused again. The main part of the dream was about us talking and me trying to get an answer out of him but not getting it. Is there something I still need from him? Did our closure go bad? Or was the dream about the last sms I sent without getting a reply? No I don't stalk or spam, it was a simple question about his life.
There were a brief part of sex in it but not enough to be classed as a sex dream. I think it was more a dream coming from the part of me that still has some kind of feelings for him. Of course I have feelings for him, he was a big part of my life for a time so it would be stranger to not have them. Question is what kind of feelings it is and why I feel a bit bothered.
A year ago he cancelled our friendship in favour of a relationship he wanted to function normally and I was fine with that at the time. I still get an sms on my birthday, christmas and on new years eve but all other contacts have been broken. Up until this fall I didn't miss him much, he was just a very fond memory. During the fall I started longing for his friendship again and you know I've mentioned before what I wouldn't give to have sex with him again. But I never been really sure as to why I felt like that? Did I miss him specifically or did I just miss someone like that?
After meeting the beast pretty much all of those feeling went away and I concluded that it was just a matter of wanting what I couldn't have. When waking up this morning I was confused again. The main part of the dream was about us talking and me trying to get an answer out of him but not getting it. Is there something I still need from him? Did our closure go bad? Or was the dream about the last sms I sent without getting a reply? No I don't stalk or spam, it was a simple question about his life.
Blowjobs
Ever since me and The Beast met we have been very responsible about our safety. We've always used a condom and never performed oral sex on either of us. We decided on our first meeting that we were gonna wait with oral sex until we're both sure that none of us have an STD. I've already got my test results back and I'm healthy as ever. At the end of the week he will have his results and after that it's party in the hay sack for us! Not that it isen't a big wooping party every time we meet...
I can't believe how much I'm longing for it, to be able to use my tongue and mouth on his dick. I long for that even more than I want his tongue on my pussy. Rather amazing eh? Every time we've had sex both of us have been longing and wanting to do it. Badly wanting to do it. I've been leaning over him and had my tongue close to his dick more than a few times and barely stopping in time, settling with nibbling and sucking his testicles.
Worst case scenario is that he's not healthy but meh, I hardly believe that will happen. I don't want that to be true. I'm giving him a blowjob this weekend and that's the end of this discussion!
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