Action, yes action!

I'm still on the adrenalin rush from the running this morning but yes, I got laid last night! Big success!

As soon as my boyfriend got home yesterday I was all over him, hugging and kissing. But alas, some kind of male stupidity must have struck him because he happily continued cooking. Now, tacos is almost as good as sex so I forgave him and stuffed my face full of it!

Eventually we ended up in bed talking about serious stuff, perhaps not the perfect set up for steamy sex. I was a bit disappointed but at least we were discussing sex, and what turns us on. After I mentioned a few things that makes me hot he then turned to me and put his hand around my throat and asked, in a unusually dark voice, if this was what I meant. Me, being reduced to a shivering package, mumbled something under my breath and enjoyed all the hornyness that filled my body.

There were squeezing, there were licking and there were sucking. Eventually he started fingering my anal and asked if it wanted to be filled up. With just a hint of shamefullness I gladly said yes. I just love the feeling of his dick sliding in and out of my anal! It fits so perfectly inside, just the size so that it stretches my anal enough but at the same time goes in without much prework.

I always have a easy time coming with a dick inside my anal, and after six years together we can time our orgasms so that we come together. It's very romantic! Not that I have time to think about romantic stuff when I'm in the middle of a orgasm...

German studyies

I'm studying and I read the word Matratze, wich means mattress. And I get horny.

In the blink of an eye I picture myself tightly bound and gagged, lying naked on a mattress in a empty room waiting and fearing for something to happen.

I doubt that was what the authors of the book had in mind.

Maniac

I wanted to seduce my boyfriend. But he was very hungry after his workout so I had to let him be. Very annoying. Very frustrating.

I was kneeling while patting my cats at one point tonight and looked up on my boyfriend. Yes you know what happens next - a rush of submission. Sigh. I had to joke it away because now is not the time nor the situation to be begging for something like that.

I am starting to feel like a sex maniac, constantly thinking about sex. On my way home today I passed a guy and picked up on is perfume, it was attractive! Moments later I passed a girl on a bike, her breasts were very exposed in that position on the bike, not to mention the cleavage her top had! Yes I drooled at that too.

Is it to much to ask for that someone, finally, treats me like this?

Spider

Also, on the same exhibition, we tried out this thing.

Oh my god! Go try it! It was extremely pleasurable! Relaxing, erotic, fantastic! I could give someone elses right hand for another go under it.

The woman using it on us must have been very skilled because it felt like a piece of heaven fell down upon your head.

My whips

A couple of years ago I was on a erotic exhibition with a friend. Back then I was way less open about who I was/am and so I didn't really dare drool at the whips, chains and cuffs I saw. We spent a couple of hours browsing all kinds of toys and clothes when finally the culmination of the evening came... Male strippers!

We had seen naked males before. But this was men, extremly buffed and oily. They were strippers. And they were 10 meters away. Not shy exactly, we got to see every little detail of their body except their cock. I remember we had a blast looking at them and laughing at the embarrassed women they brought up on stage. After that show, and two ciders, I had gathered enough courage and decided to stop by at the place that sold whips. My friend smiled and let me browse them without embarrasing comments. Eventually I bought a flogger, looking much like this:

O'boy how much fun it was! Carefully handled you get a very interesting sensation, and to feel this across my whole back is fantastic! Of course, with a bit more strength it starts to hurt.

After playing around with the flogger for a while I decided I wanted something more so together with my boyfriend we decided on a paddle:

Now this one hurts. As hell. This is the one used on me when I need punishment, because I fear it, truly fear. Not like the flogger wich I can long for. Show me this and I will beg, plead and behave extremely well. My friend I like to visit uses something like this on, but with him no mercy is shown, no cries or pleads will make him stop. Therefore it is the tool that gives me bruises. I love my bruises, hate the tool though.

That is also the reason I love using it when I'm being dominant. I know this will hurt the sub, and really test his boundaries. I must say that my sumer crush was a lot better than me on enduring pain. He took the paddler without wuss or whining.

For the feeling of being a dominant however, I absolutley adore my crop. Bought from a regular horse shop it's the real thing. Walking around the sub with a crop in the hand, yummie! Of course it works wonders on me too. The crop to me is very closely associated with disciplin. Use it to point, caress, hit and intensify what you want done.

It has been way to long since I got to hurt someone or be hurt, volunteers sign up please!

Gym girls

This thursday I went to the gym and did a little work out. It was good, I felt strong and powerful.

Usually I try to sneak a peak of the guys swelling muscles when working out. Some are not so good looking and some are to old but there are eye candy one can rest tired eyes on. This time I was stood next to a girl who, as me, is there a lot and then it struck me, I could so do her! She is good looking, no to thin, perfect breats, maybe her ass could have been bigger but generally a body that looks very nice to cuddle with. And lick. And kiss. And caress. And nibble. I do not considering spanking her just yet. Oh well, not that I'd ever dare to come onto her, heck wouldn't even dare to befriend her.

On another note, me and my boyfriend were outside yesterday in the lovely weather and we started messing around. Chasing each other, teasing and generally having fun. I tried to hit him with a stick too, and succeded! He then decided to go into close combat and grabbed a hold of both my wrists, with me still wriggling and trying to hit him on the head it was quit a effort. I had no intention of calming down or stop fighting, why would I? The feeling of his strong hands squeezing my wrists, and in the heat of the fight it was a lot of pressure, was enough to send me into submission. Now, if we would have been alone and inside that could have lead to something, however, in the presence of my sister and her kids I had to settle with thinking about it. And continue to try to hit him with my stick, in the chance of him using more force and/or brutality.

Female kissing

She was stood leaning against a wall, my friend whom I've known since the age of 5. She made a comment, said that we should be leaving now. But she didn't walk away, just stood there. So I leaned in and kissed her. A bit reluctant because I didn't know how she would react. Slowly our lips met and the kiss was a fact. I remember thinking in the back of my head "What the hell am I doing, I dont even want to kiss this girl."

Then I woke up. Of course it was another dream. Didn't I tell you, any action going on in my life right now happens in my sleep. So I kissed a friend, in my dream, that I've known since 5, she is absolutley not my type and I wouldn't even kiss her if the chance appeared. So why did I dream about her? Why not dream about the friends I actually wouldn't mind kissing. And do I honestly want to kiss a girl, or is that some kind of pressure I put on myself just because I'm kinky in every other kind of way?

I do feel certain that I want to try, and I am cool with the idea of having sex with another girl. In fact it would be extremely awesome licking a pussy. What's it like, is it as hard as I imagine, does it smell, can I make her come, what does her pussy look and feel like? All these questions that I want answered. And not a single victim in my vicinity!

Last week I dreamt about sex almost every night, this week my mood has taken a deep dip into depression and all I do during nights now is cry or sleep anxiously. I'm in good faith that I'm moving upwards again and might even get some action again! As in start dreaming about sex...

Small thoughts

The other night I had a little date with an old friend (#5) of mine. Nothing big, just chatting and showing myself to him on the webcam. I'm exhibitionistic in that way, give me enough compliments and I'm yours. Sometimes I wonder if I'm to easily charmed but so far I seem to have picked honest boys, who appreciate me for me and not for the possibility to steal my photo. Maybe my people knowledge is better than I think, or I just haven't found out what they've done yet.

Nevertheless, being told how beautiful I am and how horny I can make a person is sweet. I know I'm sexy and all but hearing it over and over again can never be to much.

Today I yet again cursed the day I lost my sumer crush, what I wouldn't give for another licking from him. But I realize that even if we meet again it can never be as it were. Now, this knowledge hurts because I am not used to not getting what I want. And I want him, between my legs, doing what he obviously was born to do; lick a pussy. There's a series of reasons why I can't have him again. My own actions being the biggest obstacle. Yet another knowledge that hurts.

For some reason the simple act of sucking on ones finger seems to have an impact on men. At first I thought it was just on movies it worked but on a numbers of occasions I've seen that it can make a man hard in real life too. I think it has to do with the eyes, what you show in them. I give myself a little pat on the back and commend myself on having marvellous eyes, vivid, intense and able to turn someone on.

Bondage Fairies

Ever seen anything so cute?

I guarantee she is anything but innocent though. Her name is Pfil and she is the main character in Bondage Fairies. If you haven't read it already and aren't afraid of kinky stuff I advise you to get a copy soon. Many times I've masturbated in her and her friend Pamilas company.

It's drawn in a manga style, Wikipedia tells me the creators name is Teruo Kakuta. I was lucky to stumble across it on the DC++ time and so I have quiet a number of books in .jpg. Nicely drawn and with a story that makes it interesting to follow. It's rather kinky, fairies having sex with each other and all kinds of insects you find in a forest. I suggest being very open minded.

In my copies of the comic there is no censorship, just lots of naughty fairies and hot, steaming action. Now this page is very vanilla to be from BF but fear not, there are bondage, violence, fucking, perverted insects and most of all, horny fairies! Go read!

Yet again a dream, where is the action?

Seems to me the most action I get in bed is in my dreams.

Lately we've had a lot of sex, mostly due to my clean shave, and it has been great sex! Then I got struck by a (mycosis, is that the term?) infection yet again and then hit my menstruation so we haven't had sex for some time now. I am tempted to seduce him and go anal though. My period makes me very horny, cool to experience but a mess to execute sex during it. And the dream about anal sex I had before still lingers on my mind and I know how great anal is with him. My natural shyness get's in the way of asking for anal though so here I am, dreaming and masturbating every day but not getting it off together with him. Wich leads me to this nights dream, in wich he actually performed.

I remember standing on all four in front of him, he leaning in over me and spanking me with his bare hands on my ass. Just enough hurtful to be enjoyable as well. Next scene he is putting clamps on my nipples, very familiar ones - we have them in our sex box, and yet again they hurt just enough to withstand. He then uses the chain that runs from one clamp to the other to pull me down towards the floor and his feet. Now, I hate feet, disgusted by them. So his command to lick his feet is a challenge. Happily I obey him in the dream and I remember licking the top of his feet vividly. After that I woke up by the alarm clock and my boyfriend came to say good morning. I told him about the dream and he look skeptical when I told about the feet thing and asked if I really could do that. I really *do* hate feet. Only halfway awake I admittet that with a command and some punishment I would.

After a episode in the shower where he caressed my breasts and made me horny I think we are both a bit interested in making sex happen today. And now I fear that he will do it the dominant way and make me lick his feet. I no longer know what I will do, he will have to make me seriously submissive for that otherwise I'll object!

Go go amateurs!

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Don't they just look adorable!

I can see myself wearing one of this during a longer session, as a jewelry. Part of the whole "dress up for my master" thingie. What I've read they are quite heavy and adds a special sensation to the normal butt plug feeling. I've only had normal (rubber, latex?) ones inside me and sure it's fun being filled up but this would give it more of a feeling of submission. Looking like the pretty toy I am.

My first butt plug was/is not very small, and not very big. Just perfect for me. I can take it almost at once and I feel filled up with it. Second butt plug I bought was/is tiny but with a vibrator. Sadly the "wings" that are meant to stop it it from going in further are to weak and after a fatal night we decided not to use it again...

A year ago I bought my third and last butt plug, an inflatable one, more exactly this one. I do get more turned on by the thought of it being inflated inside my anal than the act itself but it does feel great. Hearing the "psst" from the bulb is great, shortly after you get the stretching feeling that I do get a little bit addicted too. I recommend going slow though or it starts to sting. The vibration I can't remember at all, should probably try it again.

Dreams in the night

Drifting deeper into frustration.

I had a dream this night. A man I only know from his blog appeared in it. He was very tall and he spanked me. I woke up yearning for more and when I realized I couldn't get it I felt sad. During the dream I felt as if addicted to this man and what he did to me. Much like I assume the secretary from the movie Secretary felt like. Not so much about sex as to submitting to him and feeling his hands on my ass, painfully slapping me. Watch the movie. It's different.

I will have to go visit my friend soon, he will give me a overdose of pain so I'll last for a while. Think I need to ask him to spank my ass too. Normally he focuses on my boobs, and that hurts. I always come home from a visit to him with bruises on my breasts. I adore that though! I'm marked as the sub I am. Next step, bruises on both breasts and ass!

Sleepyhead

Yesterday I were so certain that I'd be mastubating myself to sleep.

Earlier in the evening I had watched the movie Secretary and although the movie was a bit dark there were scenes that made me horny and very much longing for a spanking. All alone at home that wasen't a possibility but at least I could give myself an orgasm. At least so I though.

Spent a couple of hours at the computer, reading novels, chatting to "friends with benefits" and suddenly it was 2am. Still horny I hurried off to bed, put on some lubrication (silicon based, love the oily feeling) and started touching myself thinking of all the boys I made horny that night (two for certain, the third I might have pushed in that direction).

Then I promptly fell asleep. Without orgasm.

Red nails

I've had a wonderful weekend.

Shaved my pussy again on friday to keep it smooth. Still working wonders on my boyfriend, he was all over me! Had a delicious fuck, kept on riding him for a long time, pushing my own orgasm away. It was so good, didn't want it to end to early. I'd like to suggest trying that, because when I finally let go and came it was so strong and lasted a long time. Delicious.

Another thing I did on friday was to paint all my nails shining red. I like red, makes me feel naughty. Just as black nails make me feel dominant and silvery nails ordinary pretty. Watching my red nails caress and scratch my boyfriends body is hot. Seeing my red nails on my own body is actually even more hot. Caressing my breasts, running down my stomach, touching my pussy, going inside me... And when I'm not in bed enjoying myself they serve as a reminder of what I just did, or are about to do.

Also the weather was awesome and the food marvellous!

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Spring

Spring has arrived!

How wonderfull! I love this period, just before the real heat sets in and you can start to see the tiny spring flowers growing in the most odd places. It also means you can put away that heavy winter jacket and shoes and become pretty again. In my case it's a black coat and heels. God I love my heels. Not particulary high but high enough for that special posture and with a heel plastic enough to make that hard sound I love so much. Gotta admitt, I love high heels mostly because of the sound, clack clack clack...

You could almost say it makes me a bit horny hearing the sound. I feel very dominant and confident, but also on the verge of submission. Dressing up for the Master, complete with high heels and looking good for him. It's mixed emotions but the shoes sure makes me feel sexy.

Now, my shoes doesn't look like this but I sure wouldn't mind having a pair.

Men in Pain

As normal I'm spending the morning studying but decided on a short break at lunch and watched a movie from Men in Pain. Yes I have tons of downloaded movies, no I didn't have to pay, it was a gift. The quality is shifting, not in production but in how horny they make me. First of all, why do they even bother with a storyline. Im not watching it for some lame ass dialogue that more often make me laugh than hot. This movie were no different, but at least it made me laugh in a positive way and not in the mean way. Scenery was a young man applying for a job as a security guard (I think, I skipped parts in the beginning) and the girl is there to try him out. She has a lovely russian accent, wich I also found hillarious in the beginning but then grew fond of. Still, even though I liked the actors there weren't much that made me tingle, expect for the final scene where she made him come and the walks off and leaves him alone. His eyes as he looks up to the camera is delicious. They express the same feelings as I myself have after a long hard session and you finally get permission to come and can relax afterwards. He looks satisfied.

I'm not sure if it shows on the screenshot but I hope you can imagine:

In the last clip you get a short interview with the actors, they talk about what they liked and what was hard about the movie. The girl then actually explains that she appreciates having a storyline, a character, to go after when she acts. She get's more creative she says. And I never thought of it like that but maybe that's the reason for the story line. They are not trying to satisfy the audience but rather trying to give the actors something to work on.

I honestly can't tell if I prefer it with or without. Everytime I have a fantasy it's more focused on the story itself, fucking rarely takes place. But every movie I've ever watched have had the lamest excuse to dialogue and you get bored of it. So maybe it's a tie. Just have to go do my own porn.