Sunday, March 18, 2012

The exquisitely delicious humiliation of having cum all over your body - and not being allowed to wipe it off

We were lying in bed, resting for a while (last night was a party night). I was naked and cuddled up with my back towards him, pressing my ass firmly against his crotch and him playing and stroking my stomach and breasts. So really, when I say resting I meant arousing each other.
Seeing as we are both kinda ill at the moment we knew we weren't headed for a big session, just som cozy fun.

After a while I was ordered around and told to touch him. I started stroking his cock in long, smooth movements and playing with his oh so sensitive nipples. He had his hand on the back of my head, applying a steady pressure down towards his cock or just a firm grip of my hair. Extremely cozy and very pleasant.

Later, when it was time for him to have his orgasm, I asked, a bit embarrassed, where he meant to ejaculate. A subtle question with a deeper meaning. He knows how much I love having sperm on my body and hearing my question he quickly changed his plans from tissues to my body. So he ejaculated, smearing cum all over my stomach and breasts and it was lovely. Feeling it hit the body, the warm liquid all sticky and gooey, and knowing that I'll have to lay still until it has dried completely on my body. Marvellous! Amazing! Hot as hell!

We cuddled while we waited for it to dry and then got up and he told me what clothes I was allowed to wear today - knee high socks and a tank top.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Monday, February 7, 2011

Last night I got spanked

For the longest time I've lacked the lust to play and/or have sex. I have barely masturbated. I just didn't want to, it's fairly normal for my body to do such things - sometimes it's horny as hell and sometimes it just wants peace and quiet.

Anyhow, last night we were watching the miniseries about Sherlock Holmes, me and the Math Teacher, when I decided to cuddle up next to him and timidly ask if he could read my mind. Wich he could!

Soon I found myself over his knee, with my pants and panties pulled down to my knees, and so we finished watching the tv while he was slowly stroking and teasing my butt. I enjoyed every second of it. Relaxing, arousing and wonderful.

Not soon after the show ended he asked me if I was ready and started spanking me. Oh how I love the spanking in the beginning when it's all very soft and thrilling! Just the right amount of pain to enjoy it. Didn't take him long to take it up a notch though and soon my moans where mixed with pleasure and pain.

Besides regular hand spanking we went through the cane, the riding crop, a spatula, a bath brush and a homemade plastic loop wich stings like a bee. All very hurtful and all very lovely!

After all was done and over with and I was lying over his knee, breathing and feeling happy, I asked him to touch me and that's how we ended our evening - me having a really strong orgasm after all that lovely pain.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

The Math Teacher

I've decided to call the new playpal The Math Teacher. He's smart, generous, a sadist and a switch.

It's been present from the beginning of our relationship. The pain. We both enjoy it, cherish it and want more of it. We both curse at the other when being hurt but the second the pain stops we ask for more. We often laugh and joke about our lack of self-preservation but in truth, I don't think any of us feel as much alive as when the pain runs through our bodies. It's a kick. An addiction and we don't plan on quitting. Ever.

He wants me to hurt him. To use his body to inflict pain, to use him to arouse myself. And I do. I torture and torment his body in every way I can imagine, enjoying every minute of it, and he still asks me for more when I'm done. It's all very liberating and I've discovered that my sadistic side is stronger and more evil than I ever imagined.

I want him to hurt me. To use me. To make me scream and cry. To leave my body with red marks and an exhausted mind. And he does. He plays with my body and mind until I'm right where he wants me, and then he hurts me some more. I enjoy every minute of it. The fear, the pain, the acceptance and the intense feelings - all mixed together into bliss.

...in wich she finds a new play pal, breaks up with her boyfriend and considers moving to Stockholm

So yeah, the title says it all really. Me and my boyfriend has broken up. We've been together for 8 years roughly and living together for 5. We're not angry at each other, we do not hate each other, we're simply put still friends. And the caring and loving for each other is still there but more in the form of brother and sister-love. So we decided to make it official a month or two ago without to much of a fuss. There's nothing dirty about it at all, we just decided that it was time we went our separate ways. It does actually feel kinda nice, I feel strong and like I'm finally going somewhere in my life. All will be well in the end somehow.

Speaking of moving on with my life, I've applied to university in Stockholm and if I get accepted I'll be moving there. It's a big city compared to where I'm living now and there's people everywhere! I guess I'll get used to it eventually but for now it's a bit scary. Hopefully this will lead to education, a good job and a chance to be closer to my friends.

I didn't really waste any time after The Beast left, I licked my wounds and started hunting again. He didn't crush me by the way it all ended but he did leave some wounds. I think they're healed now, just some scar tissue left to handle. Soon after our breakup I realized that the man I've been mailing with back and forth during the summer was actually quit nice talking to, and his writing made me curious for more. So we met, it all went well and here I am, two months later, sitting in his apartment, wearing his clothes and writing on his computer.

Friday, September 10, 2010


Kinda looks like a slumber party gone perverted.

Struggling boys. Humongous wooden dicks. Competition. Huge black dildo as reward. All fun and games!

Also, they apparently have lubricant, what are the competing boys whining about?

Monday, September 6, 2010


His hand around her neck.

Her cuffed hands ( I assume they are).

Her exposed breats (in a fucking marvellous dress).

Her devious look as she faces her soon-to-be-tormentor.

I <3 her.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

I'm sorry to say...

As much as it saddens me to write this I have to let it out. Me and The Beast is no more. We've broken up and most likely won't see each other for sex again. At times I feel relieved and at times I wish to go back to what we had.

I've experienced so much in the arms of that man and I'm sure we could have gone much deeper into bdsm than we did, we were always coming up with new things to try out and I did some stuff with him I never thought I'd do.
It felt like nothing were holding us back and there were nothing we couldn't tell each other about sex. Sadly other parts of our relationship were messed up and we never got them back on track.

It was an amazing journey.
Though I'll try to get back up on my feet and start looking for a new partner in (crime) bed as soon as possible, not having sex is boring.
Drawn by Ulf_Popenos over at Darkside


There's something about the picture I find enthralling.

The way I assume an facial expression of lust where there are no expression.
The way he towers over her, his power that's shown so obvious to my eyes.
His strength, her pleasure.
His arm around her neck, a silent threat of lust and danger.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

A leap of faith

It was quiet in the car, the man was focused on driving and the girl... Well she was staring out the window. Who knew what was going through her mind.
A sudden sigh interrupted the quiteness and she turned her head to look at him. 
"Anything troubeling you?"
"No, no! Not at all! It was just a sigh!"
The hint of panick in his voice awoke her interest but she kept quiet and decided to wait for him. Eventually he'd crack and they had many more hours in the car before the trip was done. Time was on her side. 


Suddenly he cursed and hit the brake, making a quick stop at the side of the road. She had been taken by surprise so for a while all she could do was try to catch her breath but eventually she turned around and stared at him. "What's this about now? You scared the shit out of me. Was it an animal?"
While waiting for his reply she noticed how hard he seemed to hold the wheel, his knuckles white and how he was hanging with his head close to the wheel. With eyes widening of fright she reached out and placed a hand on his shoulder. "You okey, did you hit your head?"
"Don't touch me! I'm not worthy of your sympathy!"
Stunned she removed her hand and leaned back to her seat. He had never acted this irrational before, what was the problem?
He sighed yet again. "I'm sorry, so sorry. I can't keep quiet any longer. I guess you'll hate me soon enough. And it's ok if you do, but please don't tell anyone. And don't call the police. Can you promise me that?" 
"What, to not call the police and tell them what? That you hit the brakes like a crazy man? No I'm not gonna call the cops on you. Silly."
"Not about that."
"Ok then, you need to give me a little more to go on here. Have you killed someone?" she asked with a smile. She was quietly amused and curious and not really worried that he might have done something awful. He slowly straightened his back and looked directly at her. His eyes were dark, shameful and, strange enough, longing.
"You make me horny. I can't think about anything else than your body. When I go to sleep at night you are in my thoughts. When I wake up my morning hard-on is because of the dreams I've had with you in them. Every day I get to see you is filled with joy, and shame. Joy because it feels so good being by your side. Shame because where I really want to be is by your feet."
"My what?" The words choked up for her, totally caught off guard she just stared at him in disbelief.
"Oh god I knew it would end bad. Don't hate me to much. I know I'm sick but seeing you made me believe it would be possible!" He reached for her with a begging expression. Grabbing her shoulders he begged her again to not tell anyone. During his monologue the words he had spoke finally reached her. By her feet, he said. A smile started spreading on her face. She understood now. She knew what he wanted, what he was trying to tell her and what she should do about it.
"Shut your mouth. Drive us a bit into the forest."
That put a stop to his words and he looked in surprise at her. "You mean, now?"
"Of course. When else?"
He quickly started the car and drove it a couple of hundred meters down the road to a small dirt road that led into the forest. "Make sure no one can see us from the big road then park and turn the engine off." He didn't utter a word until he had followed her command and everything was quiet again.
"Are you angry at me? I understand if you are."
"I want you to explain what you said; By my feet. Why would you say something like that?"
For a while he stared out into the forest and then drew a big breath and started explaining. How he always had been interested in dominant girls, being their servant, obeying every command and doing it with pleasure. Without hesitating he then went on to talk about her. How she made him horny as hell, how he couldn't take his eyes off her body and that he had been dreaming of her every night for the last month. Dreaming of her as his Miss, being used and abused. Locked up in a chasitybelt, tortured, ordered to please her and fulfill her every need. When he finally shut up she sat quiet for a while.
"So you want me to be your Miss. And you think I would agree to do all that to you?"
"No Miss, I don't for a second think that you'd make me so happy. I'm sick. I shouldn't have told you but now that I have, I feel relieved no matter how this ends."
"Why do you call me Miss?"
"Because to me you already are my Miss, I put my reputation and well-being in your hands now. You decide where we go from here. All the power to you, just as I want it." Their eyes met once again and she took a quick decision. "Let's get some fresh air." They climbed out of the big car and stood in front of the peaceful forest.
"Undress."
"Huh!?" He stared at her, the surprise in his eyes were amusing.
"Take off your sodding clothes, are you deaf? Can't you obey even the easiest command? You get what you've been dreaming about for so long and you ruin it at once?"
Fumbling he removed his clothes and threw them on the ground. "Finally. Now, go into to woods, find a branch, preferably birch, that you think will be suitable for whipping. Get it, take it back to me and don't make me wait too long."
He bowed in front of her and then ran into the wood not caring about grovel and twigs hurting his naked body. She smiled to herself, that man could prove to be fun. 
A minute later he returned, heavily breathing and with red scratches all over his body. In his hands was a perfect twig and he kneeled in front of her holding the twig up high to present it to her. 
"Now that was a much better performance. You acted fast and without hesitation, perhaps you do know what you need to do. Let's get into the car again." As he started to open the door to the drivers seat she stopped him with the twig. "No, no. Not yet. Get into the back."
The back of the car was a big space meant for transportation. It also contained lots of rope to tie the cargo with. As he crawled into the car she carefully stroked his ass and pondered what fun things life had in store for them.


A few minutes later she had him tightly tied with thick rope to the ceiling of the car and was watching him pull it to make sure he was secured. "Alright then. You wanted me to be your Miss. You wanted to please me and to be tortured. Well here I am and you have no idea what you have put yourself in." With that she started to hit him with the birch. Working her way from top to toe and making sure all of his body was covered with red scratches. At first he just moaned and twitched when she hit him but as the marks grew in number his voice got a high pitched tone and he started with the begging. "Miss, oh god it hurts. Miss please don't. I didn't know, I was naive! Release me!"
"Keep on begging slave, it shows you still have resistance in you. And resistance means I can break you down even more."


She didn't stop hitting until he was hanging from the ceiling, eyes closed and only a vague whimper escaping his lips. She judged him to be broken down and threw the twig away and started releasing him. When the last of the ropes left his wrists he collapsed into her arms and she gently hugged his shivering, red body. "Was it something like this you had in mind darling?"
He slowly regained his strength and stood on his own feet again. The intense look in his eyes told her the answer before he opened his mouth. "Yes Miss. It was fantastic! I never dared hope that you'd take me seriously. I was so scared before I realized that it was going in a good direction. That you wanted to be my Miss. Thanks."
Marvellous. Pure beauty. Steaming. Would love to be a fly on the wall with these two. The hand with a tight grip on the hair. The expression of pleasure. Their position. All in all a perfect picture of lust.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Ian McKellen

Thank you Sir Ian McKellen for proving that you are a sensible human.
Sweet moses, I need to look at more gay porn. Hot studs having sex with other hot studs - what's not to love?

Monday, May 31, 2010

What an interesting photo this is. We don't actually get to see the caning but we can imagine what has just happened between the two.
Her butt is probably red and aching and she's desperatly trying to cool it with the fan. But most likely to no avail. In my mind her master is only giving her a moment to rest before he's on it again.

This picture makes me long for the cane. I know that the moment the cane hits my body I'll regrett wanting it but I still do.

The Beast has a cane. I've yet to taste it for more than a few strokes but I'm sure more are to come. We only have a limited time to play around when we meet so we can't do it all in one go. Im just so impatient and I can't wait to develop more and more sick ideas with this man. He has a imagination and a desire to fulfill his darkest dreams that I haven't meet before, plus his personality is really focused on being in control of every little detail, wich in sessions is really handy. Not so much in our "normal" relationship... But hey, that's an entirely different blog!

In addition to getting caned on my ass I like to have the sole of my feets and the palm of my hands caned. Not as hard as an ass-caning though, I do like to be able to walk afterwards. But a lighter stroke of the cane on the sole or the palm can really trigger something inside me. Pain triggers the nerves of course and at the same time it's an act of dominans. "Look what I can do to your body. It's all mine and you don't get to say no."*

The simple act of sitting on the floor in front of a master wielding a cane would get me aroused. Being inspected while he walks around my naked body, using the cane to point at body parts and demanding that I position myself differently. Cuddling with The Beast on the couch, having the cane on the table in front of us as a reminder of who's in charge.


*Disclaimer: Of course I get to say no, the whole part of playing around in the bdsm-world is that both the sub and the dom have the right and obligation to say no whenever something feels out of hand. I always assume you readers know about this part since you are reading my blog.
In fact, Im so safe with The Beast that even the slightest twitch or moan that isen't part of my submission gets him to stop what he's doing. He is an excellent master for me (insert ridiculously big smile).

Friday, May 28, 2010

I was watching Eurovision Song Contest Semifinal II last night and during two performances the male singer took a steady grip on his female counterparts throat on the stage.
My submissive side awoke both times.
Getting my needs well fulfilled last weekend apparently made me hungry for more, not satisfied for a while ahead. Could also be the period incoming. God I'm horny.




Furthermore, this is an awesome picture. Feeling that big strong hand pressing over your mouth, not being able to scream or get away. Yes please! Like now. Like all the time.

My mind is so sick at times. And I love it!

Ryan Reynolds

Apparently this is the actor Ryan Reynolds - I have no idea who he is or what movies he has done but whatever. Look at his position, his predicament. There is something very erotic about a strong man properly broken down. I'd walk around him with a whip in my hand and tease him merciless.

"Those big, strong muscles ain't doing ya no good now hun."

Then I'd torment him in my basement where the screams don't reach outside my wall. I think I need a maschocistic little slave boy to play around with. The Beast does not like pain - to my disappointment.