Dreams and lust

Last two nights I've been dreaming, not genuine sex dreams but I've managed to get horny from them anyway.

First dream I can no longer remember any details from but it had a very dominant man in it. Really made me long and dream for submission. I got this picture of me sitting on the floor, leaning against my masters legs and my head resting on his knee while my master is stroking my head. Sometimes sweetly, sometimes rough. The feeling of submission is strong in this picture and I would do almost anything to experience it for real.

Second one I had this morning and it was about electricity. I'm normally not interested in that at all but the dream were hot and as usual it triggered a newfound interest. The shocks were not painfull, more a tingling sensation that sent bolts of pleasure down into my pussy. So when I woke up I spent a good hour in bed, dreaming, imagining and finally touching myself. Took me a while to reach the orgasm but I'll blame that on my friend sleeping in the other room.

So during this morning playing with electricity didn't seem so bad but now I'm back to not liking it again. It's scary, I seriuosly doubt I would like it and honestly not interested in trying. Not at this stage in my life. But it was really cool thinking about it.

Hen party (who made that word up!?)

Last week I attended my friends hen party (party thrown by the bride-to-be's friends) wich was good fun. The evenings highlight must have been the home-party we had visit us. Of course it was about sex toys and the other girls were sitting nervously giggling, blushing and joking around - it was almost as they never seen a dildo before. And you know what, I think some of them never did!

It was cool anyhow, and even though I've seen everything the seller had to show I came to realize I'd really want a Lelo Nea White. I love the way it looks and the way it feels, it's rechargable and I never been much interested in penetrating dildos, more of a vibrator girl.

Lelo Nea White and Black

But seeing as I can't afford one of these right now I'll settle with a LAYAspot:

LAYAspot

It's actually a lot bigger than the Lelo Nea and made in silicon, making it's skin alot softer. I have always had a soft spot for this one but changed my mind after getting the chance to squeeze and feel the Lelo Nea. But as I was saying, I will settle with LAYAspot because I am frikking getting one from a friend for free! Ok not totally for free, the person in question wants some naked photos of me playing with the toy in exchange. Wich is fine, totally understandable. I did have some objections to the matter in the beginning - but then I accepted that he can do what ever he wants with his money. Moral objections I never had though, I've already showed him pretty much everything on the webcam.
So, let's pray it arrives some time soon so I can enjoy it in front of the camera.

They had a total of three bdsm-things on the party; fluffy handcuffs, blindfold and the tiny pathetic rubber flogger. The seller ensured it us hurt as hell and all the other girls screamed like crazy when they tried it. One of them tried it on my arm, mind you I think she hit quit hard, and I didn't blink. Just had to control the sudden urge to moan and beg for more. I convinced her to hit again and yet again I had to withhold the sudden urge of pleasure. I do enjoy these little evidences that I'm not quit like the rest of the girls of my age. Even though I know there are other equally or more perverted as me out there they didn't seem to exist on the hen party.

I have a naked boyfriend on the couch. I think there is something I'm supposed to do with him...

Practise makes perfect

I can really see myself in a situation like this. As usual I'm after the humiliating feeling, this time it would be watching myself giving a BJ to a dildo.

Giving and taking

Ah what memories this picture brings to life. I won't tell exactly who I've done this too but it was a really fun experience to be on the giving side for once. And I tell you girls, it's a lot harder than what the boys make it look like.

I've also done some anal fisting on some occasions and I like it. The best part is of course to see how much the man likes it. And they usually do, they love it with every cell in their body. So I really recommend it. Don't be scared and dont be grossed out. The reward is worth it.

"Dubbelmacka" as we say back in ol' Sweden

It's almost as the girl is of less importance. Are the men looking at each other with passion or with fighting spirit? What do they want, to fuck each other without the girl in the way or are they trying to fight over who get's to fuck her?

Slept like a doll. A fuck doll that is

Apparently yesterdays adventure had a deeper impact on my thoughts than I would have guessed. Spent the last hours of sleep today dreaming about how I masturbated whilst thinking about my friends cock. In my dream I imagined how I stroked it, rubbed it and drooled over it. It wasen't particulary long, just average, but it was thick. Oh I remember being so determined in the dream that I was going to visit this guy, just for the chance of fucking him. Feeling his thick cock slide into me, yummie! I then woke up feeling very confused and wondering why my hands weren't on my pussy.

My exhibitionistic side strikes again

Today was just another day, I was chatting away, teasing my male friend (apparently #5 is still happening in the sex appartment) with comments about my clothes and how my nipples showed through the oh so thin top I had on. Knowing me he quickly demanded a pic ("Or it never happened!" as he said) and I, being who I am, quickly turned on my webcam and showed my beauty. Of course he didn't settle with that and soon he told me that the top didn't fit me; "Maybe you should take it off?" he suggestively asked. After a short deliberation with myself I decided on yes and before I had time to change my mind I was naked from my waist up. Judging from his look and how his eyes immediately locked onto my breasts I did make a good decision. Shortly after I got my reward, a very nice view of his cock, rock hard and very, very, tempting. (Wich reminds me, I still haven't given a BJ in a long time.) Oh so tempting, I can still recall very vividly how it looked. Dreaming about how it would feel inside my mouth or my pussy.

Future boyfriend

If I were to start a new relationship I would never settle for one with a partner who's not into bdsm.

I've been blessed with an open relationship so theoretically I can enjoy bdsm sex whenever I want with whomever I want. Thing is it doesn't happen at the rate that I would prefer. All my play pals seems to have their own life they want to live and I'm not prio 1 in their world as much as I'm prio 1 in my world. Understandable but very frustrating.

I almost never find myself lusting for vanilla sex and if I do I just sit down, breathe and wait for it to pass. I do however have vanilla sex at times but mostly in the beginning of a relationship and then it works because sex is so filled with emotions from the crush and excitment and god knows what.

Point is, I don't get beaten in the amount that I need it. And so if I had the chance of starting a new lasting relationship I would first of all make sure the guy is well aware of his dominant side. If he isen't, well I don't really see this, you and me, working out. Sorry dude, skip along.

In a future relationship I see myself having the option of misbehaving and actually getting punished for it. I see myself getting a email during the day with instructions I am to follow in the evening. I see myself getting spanked over the knee on the nights where there is nothing good on the TV. I also see myself with all the love, compassion and everyday nagging that I have today. I'm not a 24/7. I just need to be painfully reminded of my place more than once every six months.

Craving

I have a craving. Not for chocolate or food but for cocks. A big, juicy piece of meat. Nothing wrong with the normal sized ones but for now I want a big one. And I don't need to be fucked with it, not necessarily, what I want is to give a blow job to it. A guy (preferably with visible muscles) stretched out on his back in a bed. Naked. And a big cock between his thighs, just waiting for me. Big enough that I had to struggle really hard to take even half of it in my mouth. I would play, tease and enjoy myself with it. Giving the guy a marvellous BJ in the progress but that's just a plus. The BJ would only be for my sake. Licking and sucking, hearing the guy moan and breathe heavy. Closing my lips around the head, playing with it with my tongue. That's what I dream of, what I need right now.

From what I've heard I'm rather good at giving blowjobs but hey, gotta keep on practising. Volunteers sign up here!