Sunday, March 29, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Movie time
I have just finished watching Vicky Christina Barcelona and I have to recommend it. Really. It was amazing. I'm the girl whos attention span normally barely lasts an entire amercian comedian tv-show and I was, not spellbound, but intrigued every minute of the movie. It was not your ordinary movie and the way they told the story was new to me but I grew fond of it. Even though the two actresses were very different from each other I could still connect with them both and see myself in them. Wich was also a bit scary because none of them was very happy, and it was the nonhappy part that I connected too.
There were, of course, a sexual tone about it. It was open minded, modern and very, very hot. Some of the scenes made me tingle, in the sense that if it would have been me in the female role, I would have melted. Completely. I wont tell to many spoilers but the part in the middle, when everything is actually in balance, made me long for a life like theirs. Creative, loved and relaxed. Maybe I should go to Barcelona for the sumer myself.
In the end it ended like I imagined. Wich was for the best.
I think I need to see more of Woody Allens work actually.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Dominatrix
-I want some attention, she complained, I’m bored.
As quick as the eye her toy was there, kneeling in front of her.
-I am here Ma’am.
-Good boy, always so eager to obey.
She patted him on his head.
-Thank you Ma'am.
-Now, what should I do with you?
-What ever you wish Ma'am, I am here for your pleasure.
-Undress.
-Of course Ma'am.
He started to remove his sweater and t-shirt.
-It pleases me to see your body. And I don’t think you should hide any part of it from me.
- I am yours to watch, if so you wish Ma’am.
-Do you like being watched?
-Yes Ma'am. Only by you, though.
-That is not really up to you. I can show my pretty boy to anyone I wish.
-Yes Ma’am, of course.
He bowed down and continued to remove his pants and underwear.
-Now come here, sit next to me and let me play with you.
-Yes Ma'am.
He sat down next to her in the couch and she put her left arm around his shoulders. With her right hand she started to stroke his stomach. He closed his eyes and sighed happily.
-Feeling your hands on my body is always so erotic, thank you Ma’am.
-Your welcome boy.
She ran her fingers through his hair, touched his nipples and listened as his breathing grew heavy.
-My sweet boy, so horny for me.
His only reply was a moan.
-Playing with your body and hearing you breathe heavily, moaning and squirming brings me great pleasure.
-To me too, Ma'am.
They sat quiet and enjoyed the moment, she in command and he submitting. Suddenly she grabbed his hair and pulled his head back so she could kiss his throat, his chin, his lips and finally invade his mouth with her tongue. She kissed him hard and long and all he could do was sit there and take it like a good boy.
-Very nice kissing boy, she said as she lifted her head.
-Thank you Ma'am.
-I’m going to make myself comfortable in your lap now, one leg on each side of you, with my face towards you. You arms are not allowed to touch me, keep them on the couch far away from us.
-Your words are my command, Ma'am.
As quick as the eye her toy was there, kneeling in front of her.
-I am here Ma’am.
-Good boy, always so eager to obey.
She patted him on his head.
-Thank you Ma'am.
-Now, what should I do with you?
-What ever you wish Ma'am, I am here for your pleasure.
-Undress.
-Of course Ma'am.
He started to remove his sweater and t-shirt.
-It pleases me to see your body. And I don’t think you should hide any part of it from me.
- I am yours to watch, if so you wish Ma’am.
-Do you like being watched?
-Yes Ma'am. Only by you, though.
-That is not really up to you. I can show my pretty boy to anyone I wish.
-Yes Ma’am, of course.
He bowed down and continued to remove his pants and underwear.
-Now come here, sit next to me and let me play with you.
-Yes Ma'am.
He sat down next to her in the couch and she put her left arm around his shoulders. With her right hand she started to stroke his stomach. He closed his eyes and sighed happily.
-Feeling your hands on my body is always so erotic, thank you Ma’am.
-Your welcome boy.
She ran her fingers through his hair, touched his nipples and listened as his breathing grew heavy.
-My sweet boy, so horny for me.
His only reply was a moan.
-Playing with your body and hearing you breathe heavily, moaning and squirming brings me great pleasure.
-To me too, Ma'am.
They sat quiet and enjoyed the moment, she in command and he submitting. Suddenly she grabbed his hair and pulled his head back so she could kiss his throat, his chin, his lips and finally invade his mouth with her tongue. She kissed him hard and long and all he could do was sit there and take it like a good boy.
-Very nice kissing boy, she said as she lifted her head.
-Thank you Ma'am.
-I’m going to make myself comfortable in your lap now, one leg on each side of you, with my face towards you. You arms are not allowed to touch me, keep them on the couch far away from us.
-Your words are my command, Ma'am.
She took her place in his lap, proceeded to firmly hold his face with both of her hands and kissed him again. More violently this time, making sure he knew she could use his mouth in which ever way she wanted.
-I could press my body downwards now, feeling your dick with my pussy, moving my lower body and rub your dick. Would you be hard for me if I did that now?
His gasp for air was answer enough.
-I could lean forward, making you feel my breasts against your chest. I could whisper naughty stuff in your ear. I could lick your ear. Run my tongue on the outside, all the way from the top to the end. Would you like that boy?
-Oh yes Ma'am!
-Beg me.
-Please Ma'am. You turn me on so much, I love being yours, being used, being commanded, feeling your strength, your body, you using me. Please use my body, make me hot and horny for you, please Ma’am!
-Nice begging boy. I love that begging voice you have, gives me goose bumps. "Feeling my strength" you say. I want to hear what you want me to do. Tell me.
-Command me. Allow me to obey, to submit. Allow me to please you. And, mostly, tell me that I have pleased you. There is no greater joy than hearing "Good boy". Knowing that I did a good job, that I made you happy and that I pleased you is the perfect reward. All I want is to obey you, and make you happy.
-And the perfect punishment is to not be a good boy I take it.
-I hope I will never deserve that.
-Nothing squirms as good as a boy that missed out on a reward. And squirming boys is one of my favorite toys.
-I will do my best to serve you properly, Ma'am.
-I know that. But say for example you made a fault. You didn't please me.
-Yes Ma’am?
-I would undress you, tie you to the bed with arms and legs spread out and then leave you in the darkness to consider your faults. I imagine that by the time I get back you will have some serious begging for forgiveness to do.
-I would be lying on my knees, kissing your legs and feet, begging and crying.
-…
-Ma’am! Sorry Ma’am, I forgot.
-Don’t worry boy. Just don’t let it become a habit.
-It won't Ma’am.
She continued to tease, touch and lick him but after a while she leaned back a bit and removed her shirt and bra and her delicious breasts came in view to her boy. They were right in front of his faces, her nipples pointed at him and he couldn't takes his eyes of them, his hands were shivering as he had to force them down, not to touch the forbidden fruit. In the corner of his eye he saw her right hand going down into her pants and his eyes rushed down, passing her stomach and stopping in the crotch. He could see her hand moving under the pants and feel her smell. All his willpower was required not to touch her.
-Remember your hands boy, don’t move them.
-No Ma'am.
She sat in his lap, stroked her pussy, moaned and shivered and drove him crazy until she exploded in an orgasm that finally pushed him to misbehave. He couldn't resist her body anymore so he put his hand on her waist while the orgasm made her body shake. Supporting her and following every expression in her face. And when she finally collapsed against his chest he hugged her.
-Now you’ve gone and misbehaved boy.
-Yes Ma’am. I know. It was worth it.
He smiled.
-I could press my body downwards now, feeling your dick with my pussy, moving my lower body and rub your dick. Would you be hard for me if I did that now?
His gasp for air was answer enough.
-I could lean forward, making you feel my breasts against your chest. I could whisper naughty stuff in your ear. I could lick your ear. Run my tongue on the outside, all the way from the top to the end. Would you like that boy?
-Oh yes Ma'am!
-Beg me.
-Please Ma'am. You turn me on so much, I love being yours, being used, being commanded, feeling your strength, your body, you using me. Please use my body, make me hot and horny for you, please Ma’am!
-Nice begging boy. I love that begging voice you have, gives me goose bumps. "Feeling my strength" you say. I want to hear what you want me to do. Tell me.
-Command me. Allow me to obey, to submit. Allow me to please you. And, mostly, tell me that I have pleased you. There is no greater joy than hearing "Good boy". Knowing that I did a good job, that I made you happy and that I pleased you is the perfect reward. All I want is to obey you, and make you happy.
-And the perfect punishment is to not be a good boy I take it.
-I hope I will never deserve that.
-Nothing squirms as good as a boy that missed out on a reward. And squirming boys is one of my favorite toys.
-I will do my best to serve you properly, Ma'am.
-I know that. But say for example you made a fault. You didn't please me.
-Yes Ma’am?
-I would undress you, tie you to the bed with arms and legs spread out and then leave you in the darkness to consider your faults. I imagine that by the time I get back you will have some serious begging for forgiveness to do.
-I would be lying on my knees, kissing your legs and feet, begging and crying.
-…
-Ma’am! Sorry Ma’am, I forgot.
-Don’t worry boy. Just don’t let it become a habit.
-It won't Ma’am.
She continued to tease, touch and lick him but after a while she leaned back a bit and removed her shirt and bra and her delicious breasts came in view to her boy. They were right in front of his faces, her nipples pointed at him and he couldn't takes his eyes of them, his hands were shivering as he had to force them down, not to touch the forbidden fruit. In the corner of his eye he saw her right hand going down into her pants and his eyes rushed down, passing her stomach and stopping in the crotch. He could see her hand moving under the pants and feel her smell. All his willpower was required not to touch her.
-Remember your hands boy, don’t move them.
-No Ma'am.
She sat in his lap, stroked her pussy, moaned and shivered and drove him crazy until she exploded in an orgasm that finally pushed him to misbehave. He couldn't resist her body anymore so he put his hand on her waist while the orgasm made her body shake. Supporting her and following every expression in her face. And when she finally collapsed against his chest he hugged her.
-Now you’ve gone and misbehaved boy.
-Yes Ma’am. I know. It was worth it.
He smiled.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Hairless
I shaved yesterday. Totally bare. Smooth, pink skin not leaving much for the imagination. But sometimes you don't have to cover everything, I feel naughty being shaved. Naughty leads to sex. And apparently it worked on my boyfriend too, he couldn't keep his hands of me last night. Even though we kinda fell asleep in the middle of everything I woke up a couple of hours later to find his tongue on my nipples and later on my pussy. Do you know how good it feels having a wet tongue on your shaved pussy? Try it. He licked and teased me for the longest time until I had to beg him to fuck me. God that felt good, no hair in the way. Just my pussy and his dick meeting in a collision of pleasure.Photo from http://chagrin.tumblr.com/
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Give me more!
I really long for a new sex partner. The thrill of learning what a person likes and get turned on by is exciting. And I need it right now. Every time I have sex with a new person I learn something else and also find that there are tiny differences. For exampel, some guys couldn't care less about their own nipples and stimulation of them and others love it almost as much as I love getting my nipples stimulated.
It feels a bit like Im behind the rest of the people in my age, that I haven't had enough sex partners. I really wanna correct that, I like sex and I wanna see what everyone else is doing in bed. But, without even trying, I've come to the conclusion that I dont like one-night stands. I have had feelings for everyone that shared my bed and I like it. I can trust them, be open hearted and honest. I dont think it would be the same with a one night stand, then it would be more focus on getting an orgasm for yourself and less caring for the other person. But then again, I never tried. And I wouldn't wanna turn it down if the opportunity appeared. There is one downside to becoming really good friends with your sexpartner before getting them into bed, it takes a long time! And Im in need now, not in half a year.
It feels a bit like Im behind the rest of the people in my age, that I haven't had enough sex partners. I really wanna correct that, I like sex and I wanna see what everyone else is doing in bed. But, without even trying, I've come to the conclusion that I dont like one-night stands. I have had feelings for everyone that shared my bed and I like it. I can trust them, be open hearted and honest. I dont think it would be the same with a one night stand, then it would be more focus on getting an orgasm for yourself and less caring for the other person. But then again, I never tried. And I wouldn't wanna turn it down if the opportunity appeared. There is one downside to becoming really good friends with your sexpartner before getting them into bed, it takes a long time! And Im in need now, not in half a year.
Barbie
So this week I spent a day together with my sis and her kids. I ended up on the floor laying puzzles and playing with barbie dolls. And I guess some old memory of me as a kid (say 11) playing with my barbie dolls and making them have sex (wich was very hard since they dont have genitalias) came back to me because I started feeling horny. Their ugly plastic bodies made me wanna dress them up in kinky outfits and do some role playing with them. I did that quite a lot in my early days. Must have been a part of the exploration of my own sexuality. Making my barbies have sex, and doing forbidden kinky stuff was bliss for a curious kid just discovering sex.
I remember other naughty games I used to play. I had a box full of funny clothes that I used to dress up in and play with. I usually ended up as a strict schoolteacher (corsett with stuffed bra, white blouse, stockings and a red skirt) who told her naughty students to behave. Or in a dress (blue with flowers on, chinese modell) and feeling like a innocent girl that someone was taking advantage off. Once with a friend I was playing a photographer and she was the modell and I kept trying to make her pretend to take her clothes off in front of the camera.
For now I can't recall a single romantic fantasy I have had while masturbating as young. Well maybe that elaborated one I had while going on a very long car journey. I made up 5 handsome guys, gave them different looks and personalities and made them all adore me (I was very into Backstreet Boys at that time, my fantasy boys might have had vague similarities with BB looks...). But still, even if that sounds normal I remember making some of them a bit more violent in the way they had sex with me. Romantic vanilla sex has never been a vocabulary in my sexual dictionary.
Around the same age or even younger I remember playing cowboys and indians with my childhood friend and we used to tie each other up around a tree, cause that's what cowboys and indians do. I didn't know it back then but looking back, there was a certain feeling in me when I was the one being tied up.
Even doctors play occured during my young years. I made up some kind of fantasy that always ended with the doctor taking my tempeture, and we're not talking in the mouth.
When I got home after the day spent playing with my nieces I was so horny and kinky that I actually considered buying a barbie to abuse. It had to be one with jointed legs and arms for what I had planned and maybe with some nice clothes so I could make her look like a whore in her short skirt and abused body.
Picture found at http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3105/2643381067_5777d00efe.jpg
Friday, March 13, 2009
Masturbation
Woke up this morning feeling very sleepy. So I snoozed and dreamt of my online game. Woke up again and cuddled with my cat. Started to feel horny. Waited until she left me and then immediatly got to work.
Put lubrication on my left fingers, slid them down into my pussy and let out a big sigh. The first touch is always the best. I've been thinking about sex a while before I get to the point where I do it so when i finally touch myself it's lovely.
Thought about one of my more kinky fantasy, more on that at a later time, and as always it is a very certain way for me to come. Took me a little while and there it was, the orgasm, so bright and shiny it makes you wanna scream. Wich I did.
Some day I need to time my orgasms, seems they last a long time but it could just be me being very caught up in the emotion. I didn't settle with just one orgasm. After the first one I wanted to experience the feeling again. Im glad you get tired of orgams after a while or else I would stay in bed all my life, constantly rubbing myself. But this morning I decided on another one. My mind was rather blank actually, sent some thoughts to my italian boy but not enough to be called fantasy. Another shiny and bright orgasm. I felt revitalized and happy.
Put lubrication on my left fingers, slid them down into my pussy and let out a big sigh. The first touch is always the best. I've been thinking about sex a while before I get to the point where I do it so when i finally touch myself it's lovely.
Thought about one of my more kinky fantasy, more on that at a later time, and as always it is a very certain way for me to come. Took me a little while and there it was, the orgasm, so bright and shiny it makes you wanna scream. Wich I did.
Some day I need to time my orgasms, seems they last a long time but it could just be me being very caught up in the emotion. I didn't settle with just one orgasm. After the first one I wanted to experience the feeling again. Im glad you get tired of orgams after a while or else I would stay in bed all my life, constantly rubbing myself. But this morning I decided on another one. My mind was rather blank actually, sent some thoughts to my italian boy but not enough to be called fantasy. Another shiny and bright orgasm. I felt revitalized and happy.
Hypnosis
My eyes got caught in his green fiery eyes and I stopped moving. Something in his eyes told me it was time to fall again. Eagerly to feel the sensation of relaxation my body started preparing for it. Muscles relaxing, breathing slowed down and becoming steady. When he raised his finger and told me to focus on it I was almost there already. My incredible heavy eyes tried to follow his finger but when he moved it downwards my eyes closed and I drifted off into blissfull obedience.
"Relax girl, let go. Allow me to lead you. Sink deeper, deeper, deeper."
As if spellbound I followed his command and saw myself swimming deeper and deeper into a big blue ocean.
"You are mine, your only wish is to follow my command and please me. Listen to my words, they are very important to you."
Eagerly I drank his word, his tone, his voice. And when I finally sank beyond a certain point his words floated together into a blurred speach. Still eagerly I tried to listen but couldn´t understand. I opened my mouth to ask but he already had the answer.
"Dont worry girl, just let go. Its not important that you understand what I say. When the time comes you will know. Let go. Sink deeper for me.
I sank.
After an infinite amount of time something started pulling in my mind. Totally relaxed and gone to a different place I was unwilling to leave the comfortable place of mind but the twitch was stubborn and slowly I started to raise upwards.
"Wake up hunny, wake up. When I count from one to five I want you to be awake, alert and happy. One, you are starting to awake. Two remember where you are, who I am. Three move your body slowly. Four open your eyes. Five you are awake hun!"
I stretched, smiled and looked up on my lover.
"I am awake."
"Relax girl, let go. Allow me to lead you. Sink deeper, deeper, deeper."
As if spellbound I followed his command and saw myself swimming deeper and deeper into a big blue ocean.
"You are mine, your only wish is to follow my command and please me. Listen to my words, they are very important to you."
Eagerly I drank his word, his tone, his voice. And when I finally sank beyond a certain point his words floated together into a blurred speach. Still eagerly I tried to listen but couldn´t understand. I opened my mouth to ask but he already had the answer.
"Dont worry girl, just let go. Its not important that you understand what I say. When the time comes you will know. Let go. Sink deeper for me.
I sank.
After an infinite amount of time something started pulling in my mind. Totally relaxed and gone to a different place I was unwilling to leave the comfortable place of mind but the twitch was stubborn and slowly I started to raise upwards.
"Wake up hunny, wake up. When I count from one to five I want you to be awake, alert and happy. One, you are starting to awake. Two remember where you are, who I am. Three move your body slowly. Four open your eyes. Five you are awake hun!"
I stretched, smiled and looked up on my lover.
"I am awake."
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Cuddling
I said the sex was hot but come to think of it, I think I appreciate all the cuddling more. We were very good at cuddling. Lying down, bodys close together, arms wrapped around each other bodys. It's warm, it's cozy and you feel at peace. You have time to breathe, to smell your partner, inhale all the smells that are his, touching and stroking his warm skin, running your fingers through the hairs on his chest.
We cuddled a lot, and most of it led to sex in a very relaxed manner. But at the times it didn't, I felt just as happy.
Monday, March 9, 2009
The Trip
Where do I start?
We clicked immediatley. Took us a couple of hours before we kissed and then it was a race against the traffic to make it back to his home and his bed before we went crazy.
Sex was very hot! Due to his will to please me I could ask for nipple licking for an hour and he did it without hesitation. Then he could move on to my pussy and stay there for a very long time too. It was very sexy! And the fact that he actually made some session only about me...wow! I felt so very cared for! And his kisses, yummie! At first he tried to eat my mouth a little bit to much but I was bold enough to mention it so he could stop. Think he´s the first one that really knew how to use his tongue while kissing of all the ones I kissed. But the again, I can´t remember the others.
We also visited a german sexshop and oh my if you ever have the chance, go! The one we visited was first of all huge! Think super market huge. They also had everything we can find in a swedish shop and then some more. The dolls, the toys, the movies and the comcis and books. All those books and comics I have drooled over for so long on the internet, there they were, in plain sight, right in front of my eyes. In german...sigh.
As usual when I begin a relationship I find myself not so much in need of submission, neither do I have the special drive that is needed for being dominating. Rather, I tend to prefer vanilla sex due to all the emotions running around on the loose. They make up for the lack of force or mind controll very well. That said, it doesn't mean we didnt try it on. Have to admitt, I slacked a bit on the dominating part, could have done it more. But you cant push it really, it has to come willingly, or else you just end up with sex that feels forced. He on the other hand did very well on dominating me.
He had a very special power over me we discovered, a pshycological control I never experienced before. Of couse I got a bit addicted and demanded it every day. He was more than happy to fulfill my wish. After all, the visible proof of his liking was there every time he controlled me (read boner). We can call it hypnosis. Though Im not sure my eagerness to submitt didn't have anything to do with it. It felt so right submitting not only my body but also my thoughts to him. Now dont worry, I was very conscious the whole time and could have snapped out of it when ever I wanted to. Wich I never wanted to do. For a submissive girl it was paradise.
And of course, I fell for the temptation to blow him and to feel his tongue on my pussy. Will be gathering the courage to make a test soon. Not that I dont trust him, but I´ve had 3 sex partners in a short time, should get it done.
The bragging side of me is so happy to make another notch in the bed post. The sensitive side is so gratefull to have shared a week of fucking and cuddling together with a very sweet man.
We clicked immediatley. Took us a couple of hours before we kissed and then it was a race against the traffic to make it back to his home and his bed before we went crazy.
Sex was very hot! Due to his will to please me I could ask for nipple licking for an hour and he did it without hesitation. Then he could move on to my pussy and stay there for a very long time too. It was very sexy! And the fact that he actually made some session only about me...wow! I felt so very cared for! And his kisses, yummie! At first he tried to eat my mouth a little bit to much but I was bold enough to mention it so he could stop. Think he´s the first one that really knew how to use his tongue while kissing of all the ones I kissed. But the again, I can´t remember the others.
We also visited a german sexshop and oh my if you ever have the chance, go! The one we visited was first of all huge! Think super market huge. They also had everything we can find in a swedish shop and then some more. The dolls, the toys, the movies and the comcis and books. All those books and comics I have drooled over for so long on the internet, there they were, in plain sight, right in front of my eyes. In german...sigh.
As usual when I begin a relationship I find myself not so much in need of submission, neither do I have the special drive that is needed for being dominating. Rather, I tend to prefer vanilla sex due to all the emotions running around on the loose. They make up for the lack of force or mind controll very well. That said, it doesn't mean we didnt try it on. Have to admitt, I slacked a bit on the dominating part, could have done it more. But you cant push it really, it has to come willingly, or else you just end up with sex that feels forced. He on the other hand did very well on dominating me.
He had a very special power over me we discovered, a pshycological control I never experienced before. Of couse I got a bit addicted and demanded it every day. He was more than happy to fulfill my wish. After all, the visible proof of his liking was there every time he controlled me (read boner). We can call it hypnosis. Though Im not sure my eagerness to submitt didn't have anything to do with it. It felt so right submitting not only my body but also my thoughts to him. Now dont worry, I was very conscious the whole time and could have snapped out of it when ever I wanted to. Wich I never wanted to do. For a submissive girl it was paradise.
And of course, I fell for the temptation to blow him and to feel his tongue on my pussy. Will be gathering the courage to make a test soon. Not that I dont trust him, but I´ve had 3 sex partners in a short time, should get it done.
The bragging side of me is so happy to make another notch in the bed post. The sensitive side is so gratefull to have shared a week of fucking and cuddling together with a very sweet man.
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